i saw dr. kim yesterday. the first thing she did was recommend medications. she only did a cursory physical exam and she doesn’t even know me at all.
when i said i wasn’t interested, she tried really hard to convince me, but honestly, the more she tried to convince me, the more i was convinced that i don’t need medications… especially since she said that if my home situation and my work situation was the way i wanted it, that i probably wouldn’t need medications… i figure that if i have a choice between living the way i want, or taking drugs, i’ll choose living the way i want every time and if the only other option is taking drugs that i wouldn’t need otherwise then i’ll decide not to take them anyway. i’d rather be depressed than take drugs i don’t need.
i’ve got an appointment with ned, the ptsd counsellor, tomorrow… 8/
i’ve taken enough illegal drugs over a long enough period of time to know…
not prescription in this case. i’d probably do better with simple counselling than with any prescriptions i know of, especially since i, too, have experienced the “anti-depression med zomboid” from people who have taken them…
unless they made marijuana legal, in which case i’d probably smoke pot… i do anyway and it helps even out the up-and-down a lot more than anything else.
do need?
Ibrobrufen, reduces swellings generally, good for sports injuries. the only drug i take with my brain injury. if i try to walk without using it i suffer greatly, each step vibrating my brain till i lose touch with reality, hearing voices and seeing images superimposed over my vision from my memories. awkward when walking through town passing people seemingly calling out my name, helpful to avoid walking off the top of staircases when i see corridors to walk down
St.Johns Wort, drastically reduced depression and oncoming panic attacks. no feelings of suicide anymore which is good, because theres been some incidents like trying to jump out of a 3rd story window (thats the 2nd floor to us brits 🙂 ) and the time i had to walk out of my kitchen as a sudden fascination with my kitchen knives and wanting to insert a long sharp one into my stomach to “punish” myself for some emotionally defunct reason or other.
vitamin C, take them at the right time of year to avoid colds (i’m dreading getting a cough, each harsh cough shakes my head and causes intense pain and problems like walking as above)
i spent 6 years taking illegal drugs in my younger days, going out clubbing and dancing the night away to hardcore dance music. i know how drugs work, their side effects. i am therefore more careful and logical about the drugs i take now. they have all come under the umbrella of “chemical pharmaceuticals” and you just have to use some sense.
as to these wierd and wonderful drugs with plenty of side effects and personality changing traits, you just have to find alternatives. if you can’t live as yourself then maybe they aren’t worth taking.
drugs of one sort or another permeate my sphere.
most everyone i know sums up as
anti-depression med zomboid/
self-medicating with under-the-counters/
misusing prescription chemicals/
overusing ethenogens
i’d rather be depressed than take drugs i don’t need
i like this idea.
what would you consider drugs you do need?
i’m slowly reformatting my current ideas about chemical usage; interest-sparkage glimmers.
I think the problems are getting greater as a result of industrial pollution, bad diet and too much leisure time spent on non-athletic tasks, nopt as a result of world problems and formats.
after all, within our own heads we can construct our own countries, beliefs and social mores.
or maybe it’s just education and knowledge. the more we gain, the more conflicting thoughts are running around our heads disturbing our well being. they say “with genius comes madness” and you have to agree that in general, the simpler a person is the less they suffer psychologically.
Doctors like to prescribe medication for psychological problems at the drop of a friggin’ hat.
Personally, I’d prescribe major changes to the social, economic, and political fabric of the country, if not the world, and I think there would be a lot less depression in general. Not that I want to sound like Pentti Linkola or anything, but you know what I mean.
Prozac isn’t too good really. you start off with problems maintaining/keeping erections (mans worst nightmare!), cold sweats, shaking, dry mouth. then they go away (2-4 weeks) and you find the drug works as a stimulant, making you have the energy to go and do stuff, but at the same time it blocks your emotions!!! you stop caring about anything which doesn’t do family relations much good. then the drug starts to have less and less effect from 9 months onwards, you need to take a 3 month break before reusing it and you never get the same effect, with each successive period of using it getting smaller and smaller between breaks.
and we all know that taking it continuously for 13 or more months is why it’s suitable called “the suicide drug” as you stop caring about life itself.
of course, if you stop taking it, it’s out of your system within a couple of days thankfully.
i remember an article by a newspaper guy who took it, he journalled his descent into a total lack of emotion, caring and lack of get-up-and-go. then he said he stopped taking it, went to a pub a day or so later, some guy rubbed his back up the wrong way and the newspaper guy just headbutted his antagonist and quipped “i’m back!”
I was told by a head shrinker that I needed Prozac. He had seen me for about 45 minutes. I was an unemployed Single father, that had to go see the shrink because my own mother told the Department of Human Services that I was a satanist that was sexually abusing my daughter. I don’t think prozac would have helped me at all. A job, spose and a non evil-mother would have helped my mood greatly.
I declined the prozac.
i’ve been trying a natural remedy, St.Johns Wort recently and it’s removed my depression and i don’t think i’m suffering side effects as a result that can be considered annoying. look into it, it might work for you. I was just going to ask the doctor for prozac but the side effects with that are a bit annoying to be honest. the packs i’m getting say take 2 pills a day and i’m only taking one but it has taken the feelings away. i tried two pills (RDA) today and everything got a bit colourful and i found myself giggling at times for no reason, don’t really need that. of course, it is autumn now and the leaves dropping off the trees are a bit golden so i don’t know if the drug has effected my vision perception or the world is just more colourful now 🙂
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