yesterday i found out that monique isn’t attracted to me, and that she loves someone else. she says that it was written down in a “psychotherapy” notebook that i shouldn’t have had access to, but i’m not sure, especially since she left the notebook open, in her car, and when i said i was going to take a nap (in her car, at the EAT picnic yesterday) she didn’t seem too concerned about it. in any event, she has been gone most of the day, teaching, and now she is gone because she had a lunch scheduled with one of her clients on friday, that she and the client determined would be better if they had it today. i don’t know what to do. blah.