she basically says that she wants me to sleep alone, and have sex with other people in order to have a “whole hearted” life, but i married her because i DON’T WANT TO sleep alone and have sex with other people! i want to have a “whole hearted” life WITH HER!

that is the PRIMARY reason i married her, and didn’t become a celibate monk (like i was all set to do when i met her).

she says that she can no longer sleep with me, and have sex with me for HER to have a “whole hearted” life, and it is, literally, BREAKING MY HEART!! i can’t sleep, i don’t want to eat, nothing has any attraction for me… 😭😭💔😭😭

my counselor says that saying i want to die will only drive her further away from me, but i want to die! if i can’t have a whole-hearted life with her, there seems to be no point in being alive at all! 😭😭💔😭😭

P.S. please remember that i have a tendency towards hyperbole when i am under extreme stress. i DO NOT want to kill myself, as much as i might say it sometimes. 😒