nursupd 2

somehow i managed to keep three of the four clones alive since the last update, but only just barely… there’s one that basically died, and i put it aside with the intent of composting it, eventually, and there are two which looked like they were going to pull through, but then they didn’t grow at all for two months, and i thought they weren’t going to make it, when the first one started doing better (which was, for all intents and purposes, “dead”), so i stopped paying attention to the two that i thought weren’t going to make it, and re-potted the one that i thought might pull through after all, and after a couple weeks it went from being, for all intents and purposes, dead, to being the plant that i thought had the best chance of the three… and then the other two miraculously pulled through, and now, three months later, all three are looking like they’re going to survive.

i actually took four clones from the big one, today: two are going to my next door neighbour, who has been getting starts from a “professional” grower for who knows how long, now (since before i moved in, six years ago), but who has gone out of business, this year, because “it is legal, now”.

250924 -- a ten-foot-tall cannabis plant
250924 — a ten-foot-tall cannabis plant – point of reference: that is a six-foot-tall fence…
i am planning on going up to bellingham on friday, where i hope to meet up with darol and bring home some starts of his strain, because the next door neighbour was so impressed with “the christmas tree” that he grew, last year… which, basically, he put back in a shadowed part of his back yard and ignored last summer, and it produced a crop anyway. this year he wants to try putting them on his deck, where there’s more sunlight, so any starts i bring home from bellingham will go to the neighbours, as well.

i’m still in awe that it is ACTUALLY LEGAL… 🎉 at the state level… 😒

AMERICA’S SWIM IN MURKY WATER

AMERICA’S SWIM IN MURKY WATER
The Naegleria Problem

Mar 22, 2026
Closer to the Edge and Rook T. Winchester

There is a microscopic organism called Naegleria fowleri that lives in warm, stagnant freshwater — the kind of place where the water looks like iced tea and your brain says, eh, probably fine, which is how people end up in medical journals instead of vacation photos.

It doesn’t infect you by drinking the water. That would be too straightforward. It enters through the nose — usually when you dive, splash, or otherwise commit to a bad decision with real conviction. From there, it travels straight to the brain, because the human body, in its infinite wisdom, left the front door unlocked and labeled it “olfactory nerve.”

At first, it feels like nothing. Headache. Fever. Nausea. The kind of symptoms you attribute to leftovers, stress, or that one decision you knew was wrong but made anyway, because forward momentum is its own kind of logic. Then things escalate. Confusion. Loss of coordination. Hallucinations. Seizures. The brain swells, shuts down, and within about a week, the system is overwhelmed.

Fatality rate: over 97 percent. Medicine’s way of saying this is almost always how it ends.

It’s rare. It’s brutal. And it works because people underestimate the conditions that produce it.

ENTER THE WATER
Donald Trump is not an anomaly. Not a glitch. The logical outcome of a system that spent years marinating in exactly the conditions that produce him.

He didn’t appear from nowhere. He emerged from warm, murky political water — an ecosystem already thick with distrust, resentment, and a media infrastructure that had learned to treat chaos like a renewable resource. Decades of institutional erosion, cultural grievance, and reality bending just enough to snap later. The water was never clean. It just looked survivable.

America looked at that and said close enough, which is historically not a winning strategy.

THE ENTRY POINT
Like Naegleria, the breach wasn’t subtle.

Trump didn’t rise through policy or coalition-building. He cannonballed in through sheer spectacle — the rhetorical equivalent of kicking down the front door and demanding to know if anyone ordered a problem. The breach wasn’t hidden. It was televised, monetized, and somehow packaged as entertainment.

And once it existed, the system did what systems under stress reliably do: hesitate, argue, and hope things stabilize on their own.

They don’t.

EARLY SYMPTOMS
The early signs were easy to dismiss, so people did.

Norm violations were called refreshing. Outrage was branded authenticity. Behavior that once would have ended careers got reframed as “telling it like it is” — the political equivalent of licking a battery and calling it energy. Each escalation earned a shrug. Each warning earned an eye roll. The threshold moved. The system adapted — not by correcting, but by lowering its expectations until the abnormal started to feel like weather.

That’s how decline works. Quietly. Gradually. Then all at once. Then someone insists it was impossible to predict.

THE BRAIN
Naegleria fowleri doesn’t wander. It goes straight for the control center.

Judgment. Coordination. Reality processing. The parts of the system responsible for sorting true from false, for determining what is actually happening.

Once those start to fail, everything downstream follows. Usually while someone nearby explains, with full confidence, that everything is under control.

THE DELAY
The most dangerous part isn’t the speed.

It’s the window. The stretch where people say this isn’t that bad while the symptoms are clearly worsening. The instinct to normalize, rationalize, wait for something undeniable — preferably with a label, a panel discussion, a bipartisan statement. Something that makes the moment official.

By the time consensus arrives, the situation has moved on.

AFTER THE SWIM
Systems don’t collapse like buildings in movies. No single loud moment, no agreed-upon timestamp. They rot. They bend. They adapt to pressure in ways that feel manageable right up until they don’t.

The symptoms here are following the sequence precisely. Confusion where clarity used to operate. Distortion where shared understanding once held. The mechanisms for processing reality — still technically present, still technically running — grinding under sustained strain until obvious became a matter of debate and evidence became a matter of interpretation.

The conditions haven’t changed. The water is still warm. Still murky. Still survivable-looking. It always is. The danger doesn’t announce itself as danger. It arrives as tolerable, temporary, manageable — right up until it isn’t.

History is unambiguous on this: recognizing the damage doesn’t stop it. Awareness doesn’t reverse the progression. The thing that interrupts the conditions would have to be something more than knowing they exist.

Until then, it moves the way these things move.

Quietly at first.

Then through the parts of the system that can least afford to fail.

Then all at once.

smaerd

i’ve been having some weird dreams, recently. i believe, in part, they’re because i’ve been sick — at least that’s the leading hypothesis at this point, because i tend NOT TO HAVE dreams when i’m not sick, but, anyway…

i was going somewhere on my bicycle. i think it was on capitol hill, in seattle, but it might have been in bellingham — but if it was in bellingham, then that makes the second part of the dream really bizarre. and i had my trombone, in its case, on my bicycle, which is rather odd, because my trombone case is a decidedly NOT bicycle-friendly design, but that apparently didn’t affect my ability to ride the bicycle. i was riding uphill, and eventually, came to this HUGE catholic church, with wide flagstone courtyards… multiple buildings… much more like a cathedral than a church. with a wide, shallow, flagstone staircase at the front — which i didn’t have any problems riding UP, with my bicycle and trombone… eventually i found a place under some huge stone arches, where the acoustics were perfect for playing the bach ‘cello suite that i have had memorised since i was about 15 years old, so i parked my bicycle near a flagstone thing that looked sort of like the shape of a telephone booth, in the middle of one of the flagstone terraces, and started getting out my instrument. but, while i was in the process of putting it together, a bunch of people wearing capriotes came out of the phone booth, which, apparently, was the top end of a staircase whose lower end was somewhere below the terrace on which i was standing. i was very apologetic about interrupting whatever ritual they were performing, but they said not to worry about it. then my trombone F-attachment linkage came apart, and i caught the three tiny pieces and was trying to put them back together, as the people in capriotes were performing their ritual. the terrace was built around a large square of smallish sculptures, at the back of which was a bunch of large fish with open mouths, that i recognised as being a part of a huge fountain, at some point in the past, which had been dismantled because of weather, time, acid rain, and other deleterious effects on the sculpture. the rest of the statues were more-or-less life size, upper body sculptures of kings, popes, saints, and other suchlike people, but they only came up to about my waist, which sort of indicated that their legs had been cut off, or something like that. there were probably 500 or so, individual statues, arranged in a square, and surrounded by a marble banister, so that people were encouraged NOT to walk there…

then it all sort of moodged and migrated into a scene at the old national guard armoury, which is now “the center house” at what is now the seattle center / old worlds’ fairground, except that, instead of it being “the center house”, it was still the old national guard armoury, before the monorail was added. i was there with a bunch of people, some of whom i know, more-or-less, from the moisture festival, including harry levine, who were trying to remember something, collectively, but not quite able to do so. then, the scene changed again, and i was south of downtown seattle… it’s really weird, because some of the time i know that i was west of capitol hill, in the area now known as “south lake union” (which is, actually, NORTH of downtown seattle), and other times when i clearly recognised some parts of what is now “sodo”, pre-stadium, but they were much more closely connected than they are in reality. there were a lot of businesses that dealt with industrial wastes of various kinds, and huge machinery that ran a high speed slough of industrial muck along the side of what is now beacon hill, pre-freeway… and there was ABSOLUTELY NO safety precautions in place, anywhere, which gave me a decidedly 1925-to-1945-era vibe about the whole thing. i was walking south, avoiding huge piles of steaming blackish-brown goo and watching as people in yellow haz-mat suits were trying, and failing, to control the masses of muck that had inevitably spread everywhere. and then i came across some people, they might have been hobos, but i’m not sure, and one of them had a bunch of tubas that he had rescued from the muck, taken apart, and re-soldered together in a bunch of interesting ways. as i was walking along, i actually fell into the muck, up to my waist, and had to struggle to get out.

this is the last post about this for a while…

i’m getting a bit overwhelmed by the quantity of spam text messages i’ve been getting, recently, and it has bled over into this blog, which has never been my intent. nevertheless, i had to post this one as a particularly ridiculous attempt to steal my money.

this one was from a number in beaufort, south carolina — 854-279-7653, which, naturally, is a number that “hasn’t been set up” according to the automated recorded message i got — and the message said:

Your US Customs and Border Protection case ID is ZSDCG558674. Your shipment was seized due to a potential legal violation, which is presently being looked into. Contact the relevant authorities for more details. 1-805-609-6408

the number to call is in oxnard, california, and began with the — predictable — “hello, this is (whatever – in this case, “customs and border protection”) support, how may i assist you”…

and this is my recording of my call to them:

i wonder how many laws this is breaking? impersonating a federal law enforcement official, for sure… 🙄

in other news, Afroman won the lawsuit brought against him by the cops who raided his home in august of 2022, after he made a music video to help recoup some of the damages they caused in their futile attempt to drum up some charges against him. at least SOMEBODY is having a good time…

upd ate

i have been sick for the past 5 days. at this point, i’m FINALLY shaking it off, to a certain extent, but it has been extremely exhausting. on thursday, the 12th, i went to bed, feeling marginal, and, during the night, i experienced the most extreme case of uncontrolled diarrhea and vomitting that i have ever experienced. 🤢🤮 then, thursday night, it snowed about 10 inches, which (naturally) caused the power to go out for most of friday. i thought i might be getting better, but between friday and saturday it just got worse, i spent all of saturday and sunday, next to the toilet, or asleep. monday it actually started getting better. tuesday i actually ate solid food, and kept it down, and today it feels like i might ACTUALLY be getting better…

WHOO-WEE!! getting old REALLY SUCKS!!! 😠👎👎‼‼ if someone had told me about this when i was 30, i would have made a much more concerted effort to actually DIE WHEN I HAD THE CHANCE… 😒

the fremont phil has one more rehearsal before the moisture festival, which, personally, i feel is nowhere near enough. snakez alive was going to busk today, but what with my not being sure whether or not i COULD busk, combined with thaddeus having to take his dog to the vet, we didn’t… which, theoretically, leaves two (or possibly three, if i want to busk, go home, change clothes, and return to seattle for the first day of the fremont phil at the moisture festival) days of busking before we have a night at the moisture festival. at this point, i’m not expecting very quality work from the phil, but snakez alive is going to BRING THE HOUSE DOWN with our version of “Der Fuehrer’s Face”, by Spike Jones

moe had “successful arthroscopic surgery on her knee” on friday the 6th (so she didn’t have the chance to get pooped on by a pigeon — it’s a Bobs reference. look it up.) and has been off work for the past two weeks, but she’s going to new york, tomorrow, for five days, to lecture a bunch of veterinarians on the correct use of the clicker to train dogs, which means that i will be left alone, here at home, with two dogs who do okay with moe, but when moe is not around, they feel like they don’t have to listen to me because i don’t use the clicker correctly, don’t have the right treats, or simply because they don’t feel like it, so that should be interesting. moe has been given an incredible business opportunity, which, if it happens, should increase her repute as THE “dog whisperer”, but it’s still up-in-the-air enough that i don’t want to give away the plot before it gets more finalised.

and the spam text messages have been increasing dramatically over the past few weeks. they have gone from 1 to 5 messages per day, to the current 5 to 20 messages per day, and they have gotten more and more ridiculous, which, in this particular case, is definitely NOT a good thing. i took the advice of one of the scammers i talked to recently, searched on google, and found this, which i have substantially modified, made more clear, and made LESS “Apple-centric”, which i hope everybody gets to see (although i am definitely not holding my breath, at this point).

after the normal “thank you for calling (whatever) support, my name is (whatever), how can i help you”, i started out with this:

HOW DO YOU FEEL WHEN YOU STEAL PEOPLES’ MONEY?

You receive a fake support alert. It emphasises an unknown, but pending transaction, or unauthorised login attempts.

You are immediately urged to call an unknown support number, in an unknown location. Scammers impersonate staff, and ask you for your user ID, password, and payment details “to secure your account.”

URGENCY IS THE KEY.

They gain access to your data. With that information, they can login to your account, change credentials, AND EVEN STEAL FUNDS.

So, I’m asking: HOW DO YOU FEEL WHEN YOU STEAL PEOPLES’ MONEY?

and, this is what i mean when i say that they have gotten more ridiculous:

SCAMMER: <unintelligible> I steal the money… first of all we go to the church, okay? And then there’s jeezis, on the wall, and then we stand in front of the jeezis and then pray, then the son of Maryam, please give us the advantage to steal the money of the people. Ho ho ho jeezis!

so, now i’m wondering if he really believes this? if he really DOES this?? if he really expects ME to believe it? does he think it is going to offend me? or prove his superiority to me? and how does he expect me to respond?

varoom???

so i’ve been indulging, recently, in baiting scammers (a PHENOMENALLY ENORMOUS waste of time, but whatever)… and the thing i really wonder is why they get so mad when i call them out… like, I am the one doing the wrong thing, here… never mind that what they’re TRYING to do is illegal and immoral (i’m not sure about fattening), and they should be tossed in jail for the rest of their natural born days… 😠 they cuss me out and say the most nasty things about me, and then they hang up before i get to ask them why they feel that way about me! 🤷

i’ve currently got 1,269 “unknown” numbers BLOCKED in my phone, which hasn’t slowed them down in the slightest. i got a spam text message, this morning, from “Morocco”, to get “Apple tech support”, for an “unauthorized P0rnhub.com purchase”, gave me a REALLY SKETCHY LOOKING URI to click on (which, significantly, was NOT “apple dot com”, but “luminous-cassata-02fac0 dot netify dot app” 🙄), or wanted me to call a number in Honolulu, Hawai’i. when i called that number, this happened:

they all start out the same. the mark sucker patsy OTHER PARTICIPANT says “Thank you for calling Apple support, my name is Kevin (or whatever), how can I help you today?”

salamandir: Hi Kevin, I’m wondering if you can tell me what it feels like to steal money from people?

Kevin: Go fuck yourself, mother fucker, son of a bitch!

to employ an aphorism from the ’70s, “well EXCUUUUUUUUUSE me!!!” 🙄